Day 33: Stay

"Even if you push them away, people who love you will choose to stay"

Do people leave?

Sometimes you end up asking yourself that question. Of course, for some of us, it was just an abstract thought, a whatever stream of consciousness that only exhibits when our brains are bored. Some of us would just forget it, just to look for fun and belonging and love and trust again.

Some of us, though, don’t.

We try to find the definite answer to if people leave or not. We think that we can only trust the ones that are willing to stay. Besides, what is the point of hanging out or getting attached with someone when you already know they will leave you? Maybe even betray you and use what you trust them to hurt you? We think that we keep everything to ourselves, that we never let anyone in the mansion that we’ve built. Then no one stays anymore, in that cold, large mansion where they can’t find us.

So do people leave?

They might.

As a matter of fact, most of them will.

How do we know which one will stay?

We don’t.

There’s only one way to find out if they do. Give them a chance to come to you! You never know who they are or what they experienced. You never know if they are going to stay or going to leave you. You never know if they’re going to make you happy or make your heart broken into pieces.

The fact is, most of the people you met won’t stay. I can never guarantee I will, even if I do try my absolute best to. But the solution isn’t to avoid the 99% heartbreaker out there by cutting off everyone to your bubble. Yes, you will avoid your fair share of sharp pain, but you will be living in your constant one. Maybe, just maybe, give people their chances to come to you. You will suffer, but maybe out of a hundred times, you find that one person that may stick with you, deal with your low and celebrate with your high. That’s worth it.

I’m not saying that you should go out there and tell people your vulnerabilities. That is certainly a horrible idea. I have my two closer friends in college, living with me and I haven’t trusted them with… um… really… anything yet. They haven’t seen the side of me where many have hated and stayed away. So I don’t know if they would stay. But I do plan on giving them a chance sometimes.

Out of the whole world, only three people know me, the full me, the high, the low, my story and my passion. Yet, maybe someday, they won’t stay. But I’m giving them a chance to do so.

So if you’re in your bubble and I come asking. Maybe I don’t know you, your story, your low and your high. Maybe, I won’t stay. But please do me a favor.

Please give me a chance to stay.

                                                                                                                                       Always,

                                                                                                                                       Denny